Hi friends. 🙂
As I write this it’s Friday morning. Fall has officially settled in here in NJ which means there’s a chill in the air (and for some reason, lots of wind!). This weekend Huy and I will be working on getting the house organized and will finally be moving into the master bedroom (we have been sleeping in the guest bedroom since we bought the house last month).
Now that I’m back on the blog I wanted to share some posts documenting my pregnancy. I have been keeping notes of things I’ve felt or experienced so I’ll be happy to have them all in one place where hopefully others can enjoy reading them. I would also love to connect with other moms and soon-to-be moms so if that’s you, please leave a comment and let me know your favorite part of motherhood so far. Mine is feeling my baby girl kicking inside of me. 🙂
As a content creator, I have been dreaming of the days where I can find creative ways to capture and share the precious moments of transitioning into motherhood and raising my children. In the beginning of my pregnancy, I had such a hard time with hiding the news from everyone. Most women decide not to share their pregnancy with the world until after they have cleared the first 12 weeks. There could be complications in the beginning so it’s best to wait it out before sharing the big news. I was no different. I wanted to make sure that my pregnancy was healthy before sharing with the world.
I have been on YouTube for over 2 years which has allowed me to share many details of my life with my YouTube family. It’s been a great way to connect with others who have similar life experiences and I have been able to build a supportive and loving community that I am grateful for everyday. Because of this, I wanted so badly to tell the world our great news from the beginning since I am so used to sharing what’s going on in my life and how I’m feeling. But for 14 weeks, I kept it under wraps, which was a lot harder than I expected.
Even though I was keeping this huge secret, I was still uploading 3 videos a week to YouTube and updating my Instagram posts/stories daily. It was so hard to keep up since I was extremely tired from the first trimester. I could hardly stay awake after work and dinner so I physically had no energy to write anything for the blog, which went on hold for months. Holding this big secret inside actually made me start to pull away and almost “hide” away from my internet family.
I was filming vlogs but doing it in a way where the focus was on something else (not just my daily life/feelings). I’m not a good liar so I didn’t want anything to give away that I was developing a baby inside my belly!
This made for a really lonely period. I was so excited and really wanted to just share my news everywhere as soon as I found out. I did tell family and a few friends but that didn’t really change the fact that keeping the secret away from social media where I am so active was still difficult.
Keeping the secret was hard but keeping up with the content was even harder. During the first few weeks of pregnancy I was incredibly exhausted, but I ended up creating DOUBLE the video content. I was editing and filming new videos to go on the channel in real time but was also filming pregnancy vlogs and updates behind the scenes to be shared once the news was public.
So working 40 hours a week, being pregnant for the first time, and creating ~5 videos a week was pretty much insane! Of course I’m glad I did it because I didn’t want to stop posting on my channel and look suspicious and I also didn’t want to miss out on capturing those special moments in early pregnancy.
I think that is was worth it to keep the secret in the beginning, no matter how hard it felt. I was able to do my early pregnancy research without getting too much “advice” from others, and to bond with Huy over the fact that we were creating a life together. It was almost like we were in our own little bubble with our teeny tiny baby.
Of course, now that the news is out I can finally relax and let the joy spread. It felt so good to finally share the content that I had filmed in secret for all those months and even share an Instagram story of my bump! I’m looking forward to going on this journey with Huy but also sharing all the precious moments with our internet family and keeping them for the future! I am so grateful to have a platform and a huge support group during this time of transition, growth and excitement!
Please let me know if there are any subjects you want me to talk about here on the blog. I’m planning to document my journey but also want to use this is a platform to connect with you. And to all the mamas and soon-to-be mamas out there, you’re amazing! 🙂